Dear Bakerstreet
Jan. 30th, 2012 07:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lulutiffanyI had no idea how destroyed I would personally feel by any of the drama over the past week. For over a decade, I have poured so much of myself into my characters and their development. I’ve been in many games on LJ and DW, I’ve also taken time off, but my heart has always comes back to RPing. Drama has come and gone, as it does for every one, but it has always passed. This time? I can’t say how things became the way they did in the end. All I can say is that I’ve not felt this sad in a very long time.
I hold every single thread on Bakerstreet and anon meme that I’ve ever done dear to my heart. I RP with my entire self invested in my characters. I put myself onto the page, no mater how silly or dramatic the meme is. Sure they can get OOC, but isn’t that the fun? Isn’t taking a chance that you may or may not connect with another writer the point of posting to a community like this? Sure, they may not answer, but what if they do? It is that type of thrill that I love. These are not games where you must fill quotas; it’s a place where anything can happen.
I can’t defend my reaction from a week ago, but I can say that I should not be defined as a person for it. I may be speaking to no one but myself right now, but I have to say a few things out loud somewhere. For my own well being:
I am a good person.
I forgive anyone that cannot see that.
To everyone that allowed me to have amazing adventures with them, thank you. You really mean more to me than I can ever express.
I hold every single thread on Bakerstreet and anon meme that I’ve ever done dear to my heart. I RP with my entire self invested in my characters. I put myself onto the page, no mater how silly or dramatic the meme is. Sure they can get OOC, but isn’t that the fun? Isn’t taking a chance that you may or may not connect with another writer the point of posting to a community like this? Sure, they may not answer, but what if they do? It is that type of thrill that I love. These are not games where you must fill quotas; it’s a place where anything can happen.
I can’t defend my reaction from a week ago, but I can say that I should not be defined as a person for it. I may be speaking to no one but myself right now, but I have to say a few things out loud somewhere. For my own well being:
I am a good person.
I forgive anyone that cannot see that.
To everyone that allowed me to have amazing adventures with them, thank you. You really mean more to me than I can ever express.